Thursday, July 04, 2013

Brother Train




I remember those years of red letter boxes,
And expected cycle rings on summer noon,
Heartbeats rose and fell as he pedaled past,
No parcels nor covers, and not even a card.

We filled our father’s pen weeks past week,
Warded crows off lemon pickles left to dry,
Practiced math, wrote cursive within lines,
Until our pencils shrunk shorter than thumb.

Then came the card drowning mother in joy,
‘My brother coming across a thousand mile’
‘Bombay mail’s two minute halt’ father said,
‘On his way, not to see you, fifty mile away’

Rainclouds gathered over her furrowed eyes,
Growing heavy and low as we ran for cover,
There was lightning flash, then the thunder,
We closed our eyes tight for clouds to burst.
 
My father resisted like umbrella in hurricane,
Blown away, twisted and turned, inside out,
He sighed and resigned to his fate with sulk,
For two minute event One Day Earned Leave.

Rickshaw to bus across hot and bumpy roads,
Halted for lunch, tea, passing train, puncture,
Twice more for my mother to vomit and relax,
And once again for an unseen accident ahead.

Plodding weary to wrong platform just in time,
She ran, dodged porters, passengers, luggage,
Jumped steps, glimpsed the last coach leaving,
‘I missed my brother but at least saw his train’

Friday, April 12, 2013

Said and Done



That date less silence was never forgetting,
Nor nightly knocks on your memory’s door,
I woke to a few blank leaves that scattered,
Open between lessons on history and hope.

Had our words been sharp pebbles of shore,
Waves after wave could have dented clean,
And seasons of breeze and thunder shower,
The layered heat and dust of our daily grind.

Casting my nets far and deep into lexis flow,
I find not one idiom of flesh, blood and bone,
I retreat to ceaseless tide of days and shells,
Of what never was but what could have been.

(2013) 

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Death In December




It was familiar even at a distance away,
Those rustle among the far away trees,
Where sunless days sink in evening fog, 
As ways of history yield to daily traffic.

He saw the footprint leading elsewhere,
Restless tread gaining pace and weight,
Could pause, or move, to left or to right,
He found his compass in tune with map.

Cold winds hissing like remote whisper,
Stopped him midway in a definite recall,
Dropping unfinished business never his,
He stepped out silent, sure and in stride. 


(2012)

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Still Night


He recalled countless times their last conversation,
About locking kitchen window where cats sneaked,
For many years, his routine words for sound sleep,
She greeted with a sigh, a heave, turning on sides,
Leaving him groping in dark, feeling wall for switch,
Reminding along his way her insulin, test calendar,
First daughter’s missing gold, second’s long silence,
Third’s sister in law’s divorce, last’s uterine fibrosis,
In that still moonless night, his mind went on hunt,
Striking at fleeting thoughts seeking refuge in sleep.

Thrice lucky, widowed sisters said holding his hands,
Dying before you, in sleep, when Sun moves North,
She had prayed long for this day, he said to himself,
Selfish woman letting her burden drop hard on him,
He gently steered noiseless grand children forward,
As daughters convulsed together, alone and in two,
A sniffle there, a moan here, puncturing the silence,
As heat of day withered many tongues and flowers,
Rising for customary rites of priests to god of death,
Had to work now for her salvation, and his own too.

They swept floors, washed and lighted a clay lamp,
Took out unwashed vessels that brimmed the sink,
He found all slots of pill box filled neat for months,
Coffee powder ground fresh for the year and next,
Insurance dues all settled, fixed deposits renewed,
Her even numbered saris of same make piled high,
Had crushed all her silver for four golden necklace,
Seeing mattress still wrinkled from her final sleep,
Moved pillows to discover his forgotten horoscope,
She had kept all along, with a tattered prayer book.

(2012)

Sunday, September 02, 2012

The Conversation



She met him the appointed day and hour,
Where dotted clouds gather past deadline,
In that one blissful trickle of Time eternal,
Her protocol smile widened just so much,
Pumped hands twice, by etiquette lesson,
Her glass firm on nose, words in measure,
Numbers moved neat in grace and in step,
Bovine’s fertility rate as it is and should be,
Planned multiplication, ratio to population,
More yield per unit for wider consumption.

Awed by her craft, he probed antecedents,
Her syntax held aloft several planes in sky,
Weaved the rainbow strands of Corporate,
Departing a world virtual for stage illusory,
Filled her long funnel of years with tasks, 
His too was a tale of syntax, but of words,
Swarming his ways buzzing and stinging,
Strategist, Mentor, Change Agent, Victim,
Unsettled and resettled, extreme to inland,
Could nod her on odder outlooks of limits.

Drizzle to showers and burst to downpour,
Flowed fast and slow with sporadic pauses,
Faces in contour, added bones, filled flesh, 
As each mirrored the other in brief glances,
Delving past wrinkles to core of innocence,
Felt pain of rocky road traversed all alone,
Living in their own hearts the tale of other,
Lingered on now to see through the blinds,
Loose soil ready for early shoots and roots,
Rains had been generous on seeds of time.

(2012)

Monday, July 30, 2012

Good Night Quatrains


# 1

How long will this bitter winter last,
This chain of days with vibes cold,
When will the shy sun show its face,
And awaken summer to its warmth.

# 2

Walking across scorched sands of day,
Sheltering tired sun in my eyes,
May I dip my legs in the waters now,
Looking up to release sun back to sky?

# 3

Time for fishes is also that for fisherman,
Lowering the nets, taking to repose,
Next day’s snare is of destiny’s make,
Weaved into knots in the dark’s silence.

# 4

Why do the stars greet only the weary?
Wounded and licking after day’s battle,
There is such soothing canvas up above,
But eyelids close to such sparkling art.

# 5

I saw you as that twinkling lode star,
Learning too late of passing ships,
I saw no darkness in your dazzle,
And left my lamp to mercy of winds.

# 6

He was my King of Questions,
Saw in me his Queen of Answers,
Questions remain as He was,
Answers forgot what She became.

# 7

I trace across the lines on my palm,
Those of fate, fortune and the heart,
In trail of snakes, ascent of ladders,
Your future indeed is in your hands.
  
# 8

Price hike is a fit subject for poetry,
Rising quiet like her wordless love,
Biting sudden as her wild passions ,
Leaving me dry, in flood and famine.

 # 9

I seek in vain that one food to fill,
Parched body’s ruthless hungers,
Rootless mind’s endless curiosity,
Soul’s craving to flee them both.

# 10

June is one true grey month,
Heat still around, but not so,
Chill in the air, but not yet,
Like hot and cold of her love.

# 11

Play your role well, more to come,
Masks to wear, masks to rip off,
Drama is ever beyond audience,
Where script alters as characters do.

# 12

Love begins like a refreshing drizzle,
Growing steady into a downpour,
Lightning happens, thunder follows,
Monsoon ends, groundwater dries.

 # 13

We once completed each other’s sentences,
One message following next like numbers,
Each wanting in itself but together a tale,
Now scatter like vowels, whole but hungry.

# 14

It is a night of calm after days of storm,
Rituals poised between sleep and wake,
Feeding on diet without sugar and salt,
It is orderly, and boring, like a neat home.

# 15

My wife picks her vegetables as fine art,
They have to shine, look fresh, have life,
Provide strength; also break to her touch,
Her art failed in me, but I get boiled too.

# 16

‘Close the door, the bird has flown’
They said across chill of late winter,
‘Open the door, her nest is still here’
My heart said in waft of early spring.

# 17

Pipers have come, so have my guests,
Sandal in air, joyful designs on earth,
Garland in grasp, flowers in mane,
Groom of trance, ready in my dreams.

# 18

Her drooping arm on his stooping shoulder,
Skin creased in smile to his wrinkled wink,
Her toothless grin still raced his frail heart,
His wavering steps extending her life span.

# 19

It was blind love on the passion road,
Finding each in mirror of other’s eye,
One had to steer, other read the map,
Look just behind, see also far ahead.

# 20

My lines speak to hearts of some,
Reminds others their duty to doze,
I know not if she reads to sleep,
I write and sing to audience of one.

# 21

Romance often is like holding hands,
To cross the slithering traffic snakes,
While it seems togetherness for life,
It seeks just to break eternal tedium.

# 22

I look for poems as a fisherman does,
Sitting long day still for just a ripple,
Some bite and flee, as I jolt awake,
Losing that in lake, and that in dream.

# 23

I remember those days we were at play,
Words moved like shuttle, landing soft,
Those forward thrusts and retreats quick,
To place the cheer in each other’s court.

# 24

May pillows offer you comfort of lies,
Blankets the warmth of cover ups,
May mattress hold up your pretences,
Quilts cushion your dreams of deceit.

# 25

Minds join not just when bodies do,
Words being better glue than sweat,
Knit it close to lace a fabric of love,
Or weave tight to crush and crumple.

# 26

If only cold silence could kill our love,
Passions would dry in heat of words,
If only past were a matter of memory,
We could each envision our vignettes.

# 27

She was dressed in black, like clouds,
Had that sunny cheer of high noon,
Praise the Lord of Square and Circle,
Who is also the Great God of Curves.

# 28

My deepening loneliness hears its echo,
Alone into hollow of darkening blue,
In such vast spread of night’s blanket,
Which two stars ever touch each other?

# 29

I have heard about words that burn,
But silence is fire, singes more,
One word heals when another hurts,
Why does silence stoke fires deep?

# 30

My Taj is ready beside a river of tears,
Your charm sealed in poem of stone,
Generations will glimpse your awe,
So why don’t you die and grant it life?

# 31

I hear restless buzz of endless traffic,
Moving sleepily along the lazy lines,
When do they come, where do they go,
Time they arrive is their time to leave.

# 32

Poets are born perverts, dying as one,
Saw moon first as fruit beyond reach, 
Then as lover tugging at ocean’s heart,
Read in its wax to wane, his own tale.

# 33

Night darkens with her deep desires,
Restless passions of waxing moon,
Rivers of sweat mix in a humid hunt,
As lust prowls and growls for its prey.

# 34

Were his ten SMS better than none?
Buzzed like flies, swot by silence,
But those drops seeped like love,
Lingered on, like drowse after wake.

# 35

Poetic justice atleast for poets,
His passion killed by silence,
His truth raped by denial,
His songs avenged by slogans.

# 36

Doors that close can open still,
Or what are those springs for?
Those you lock too can unbolt,
Or why key on chain of heart?

# 37

Only broken reed can make music,
Visions past daily write a poem,
Splitting the steps must to dance,
What brings pain also brings songs.

# 38

Life being a road is one tall tale,
You cannot go same route twice,
Nor retrace steps if you are lost,
It is simply one lane trek to grave.

# 39

Dark cloudy night when secrets tumble,
Heart thunders at seam and lips unlock,
Skeletons that rattled, now out to dance,
Kicking up ashes in air, as past crackles.

# 40

If only love did break like a mirror,
Shards sharp and too small to glue,
But it fades like silver from edges,
Reveals the past, conceals the next.

# 41

The ones you love to laugh with,
Are not the ones you cry to,
First reminds too much of salt,
And next too much of sugar.

# 42

‘You need to see her afresh’
I get new glasses, fresh vision,
She is still as ugly, as adamant,
And me, equally as helpless.

# 43

I now wait patiently for my lines,
As I did for rustle of her tread,
Both had this trait in common,
To entice and evade in same blink.

# 44

Poetry is for those seated back,
Gazing worlds through words,
Hands on steering, legs on pedal,
I see just the bum of car ahead.

# 45

Each verse of mine is a knock,
As I wait and wilt at your door,
If I do dream, shake me awake,
To bliss of your eyes upon mine.

 # 46

The slots on my calendar are full,
Hours to dates, months to years,
Ready for times that may not come,
Hesitant for the day that would.

# 47

While you slice the daily onions,
Or design those birthday cards,
When you drill dry earth deeper,
It is such times that love strikes.

# 48

And they lived happily ever after,
He is his kitchen, she in her room,
Different cables, distinct channels,
Wordless peace at the dinner table.

# 49

The sky and earth have at last met,
Long in sight, just beyond grasp,
In wet days of their torrid festivals,
The smog of silence is still upon us.

# 50

River of Quatrains will flow on forever,
Being mortal, cupped my small hands,
Drank to my thirst but stream goes on,
Hunger will return and so will my verse.

 (Series of SMS Poems.  Commencement 11th June 2012, Conclusion 30th July 2012)